Sunday, April 30, 2006

Life after death

Little child let me walk by you
Let me grow old while you grow
Hold my hands when I die
Be by my side every time I cry...

You were my father once...
When I was a child long time ago
You do not know ...
Of the times that I spent with you

Little boy.. let me walk by you..

I have seen the dark sides of death
And I have seen life pass me by
When sky is no more blue
When there is no more sky...

I have seen red seas in your eyes
When you were my father...
And I died.. Your little child.
I have been alive once again

Little boy... let me walk by you

Let me walk by you.. once more...
Before I die in your arms again...
Life after death is not the same
But here I am with you again...

-Anubhav

Monday, April 17, 2006

The children with no shoes

The red flowers on the road side
Used to walk with me to school
The little boys with blue shoes
Chuckled all the way with me

It was a twenty minute walk
But I always took some more
Looking at the roadside houses
Of clay and the children around

They could not go to school
For they had no blue shoes
That's what mommy used to say
No shoes meant no school

Now I drive my way to work
I still see the clay houses
And the children with no shoes
With an unwanted look in their eyes.

They never grew up it seems
I did to find the truth
It was not the shoes but us
Who gave them nothing but empty stares...

- Anubhav

Thursday, April 13, 2006

There were places to go

I find little things in my head like a scar
Of the thoughts that you left behind.
Little pecks of love in the evenings
Made me feel like a little boy that summer.

Shapes of your fingers on my hands
Carved out a spot to rest in the afternoons.
When you slept in my car and I drove
Far away on the highway with nowhere to go.

The grey shades of the roads to lead us
To some place that we would call home.
You were ready to go to any place with me
As long as we were going together.

I can feel that empty seat in my car today
Where you used to sit and smile at me.
We always had some place to go
Hand in hand, humming our songs.

I remember the little things that changed
When I asked you to trust me once more.
One more year and I would be better off
To be able to take care of you forever.

But I did not have those fast cars
That your new friends drove around.
And I couldn't go to those places
Wearing rich clothes and no worries.

I would have done it for you once more
All I needed was a little time to come through.
But I did not have those shades of blue
In my eyes any more - That's what you said.

And we could not go to all those places
Just being what we thought we could be.
This time you had different place to go
Leaving behind the shadows in my head.

- Anubhav

Monday, April 10, 2006

Finding that thought...

So deep in my heart that I lose it once more
There is a feeling hiding its subtle notes.
Wresting with the want to know the unknown
It sinks beyond the reach of my small hands.

I remember I once found a feeling that I lost
In such a way. It was sitting alone in a corner
Of my heart. Hiding its frail face with a veil
Of obscurity and the fear to be discovered.

A little nudge would push it deeper
Into the caverns of the dark alleys of my mind.
A little force would make it vanish
Into thin air, like it never really existed.

So I crawled slowly up to it and whispered
In its tiny ears, that it was mine and I
Belonged to it. We were brothers and sisters
Dancing with awkward steps in my thoughts.

I found it in the unknown and now I have lost it
Once more. Yearning for the jingle of its steps
I look around with a flickering lamp of desires
To find my dancing thought partner again.

-Anubhav

Sunday, April 9, 2006

The bottle cap

Lying on the floor upside down
Its staring at me with a gaping look.
There is a story that it whispers
About the toll that time took.

Looking around I find shards
Of broken glass stained in blood.
The vision of happy little faces in the park
With dirty hands dipped in mud, flashes.

Drops of red in shocked surprise
Dripped forth in the daylight.
The upside down bottle cap
Reminds of that summer day.

- Anubhav

Wednesday, April 5, 2006

The red arrow

They had smiled and kissed while holding hands
Watching more of each other than the movie.
With their eyes drifting over each other
Anticipation got better of all emotions.

His ruffled hair and her slightly form were waiting
For what they thought would follow
Sooner or later. They would want it soon!
To rush or to stay was not a question.

The gun shots from the movie faded away
Into the noise of the blood rushing
In their heads. Her red dress reflecting
The passion contained in his dark eyes.

The little popcorn box had fallen sideways
As if it was not surprised by the neglect.
For there was something deeper running
In that space than a movie and popcorn.

He remembered when he had met her
At the subway one week ago. His slurred
Voice had caused her to stir.
Coffee followed and led on to dinner.

John felt that there was something that would last
At last. Nudged on by her hints
Undeterred by her emphasis on being just friends
He flowed on with the pecks on his lips.

His rough hands communicated a want
And hers reciprocated in a silent desire.
The white shine of Jenny’s ribbons
Beckoned him over more than once.

Just then that other man tapped her shoulder
Calling her by a name not known to John.
And she snapped and turned around with
Tears streaking her face like rivulets on fire.

Her blank eyes stared back at him,
Desires were now replaced with guilt.
Maybe there was something deeper in that space
Than his raging young emotions on display.

She got up and paused, then walked across
The row of seats to where that other man was.
Her wet eyes stared back at John when her lips
Were locked with that other man.

She walked out silently and the movie played on
With loud voices in his head and on the screen.
He got up looking at the warm empty seat and started
Walking to the red arrow sign which said “Exit”.

-Anubhav